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I've moved!
I'm no longer staying far away from my school!!! YAYYYYY
New place is greattt. I can see the sea and straits and everything else. Trees too. so randommm.
When i'm bored i'll just lie there on my mat and pillow and just sea-watch. It's amazing. But there seems to be no sunlight, maybe it's coz of the placing of the building? Idk.
THere are down sides too. Like, when it rains, the wind is a lot more scarier and louder. And don't forget the thunder. I hate thundders :x
Moving on.
I'm still homesick.
I miss my old vintage-y home so bad i feel like begging my mom to take me back. Of course i didn't, silly.
But it's ok now, after a week or so. I feel better, right now this is home and i'm starting to accept that.
Plus i'm really organized now. So i'm really lookng forward to 2012 when school starts and i start studying and cramming for PMR with my new organizy ways.

It feels like i'm in a fake little world sometimes, like this is all a dream.
On some days i would wake up and thnk that i'm in a hotel or smth. Coz it's just sooo different and new.

Those were the hard times.

I guess i'm a stick-to-one kind of person. I don't move on easily. So when i grow up im not move more than once. Just one move.

So many ramblings here. I miss ranting on the computer.
Havent done that in months.
Maybe reading shelley's blog makes me wanna type stuff again. -------- WEIRDDDDD

X-mas wishlist:
Camera
iPad2
a new laptop


I am so not a greedy person *winks*

Holidays

 

Me sista’s pretty things.

   Computer face ! LOLLLLL

COUSIN DEAR :)

From last nights steamboat, welcome back :)

Been wanting to go out , but thanks to the unpredictable weather, i can’t go anywhere:(

1.00

Blogging in the middle of the night. ahhh~

So emo today. Well it was fun at school, finally ended our first fight!
But then i got home and started seriously conidering going to Tenby. My mom said yes A FEW MONTHS AGO, but today she said no. money issues. Like, we're not gonna starve or anything, just issues. If you never planned to let me go , why did you said yes in the first place and got me fantasizing how wonderful my life would be, how i would get to start anew ?!!!
my sister said i was lying to myself,i only wanted to go because of my friends, and not because of my studies. i was mad at first for her accusing me and i cried.
Then i started thinking, well maybe yeah. But it still sucks when you know you'll never get what you want . NEVAH EVAH.
I could handle all the shit, i havent tried yet right? i can always choose account, im not gonna be a scientist.
I wanna have a life w/o science and maths all those cold hard facts, but my mom thinks i love facts and calculations, what she doesnt know is that i have lots of thoughts and im not shallow, im not carefree.
Seriously considering being a photographer or artist, like music and stuff.
My photography skills not bad lo, as long as i have good camera, HAHA, but there's still room for improvement.
To think about, education on paper isnt all that important to me, maybe math but not science. Maybe i can be a mythologist or smth like that, someone who does researches all the time, who needs to travel a lot and go to really historical places and i can be like ROBERT LANGDON. hahahaahaha . ok not gonna happen. but who knows.

cake !

Wanna change my blog design but i'm too lazy zzz.
Havent got much time left, going to Jane's house to bake a/some cakessss.
Ok, quick update.
On Saturday, I went to the guides farewell and i had a good time. that sucks, coz everytime I've decided to quit, something good comes along and then i have to think thoroughly again on whther i should quit or not.
been reading this book 'starcrossed', not even halfway through it yet coz so many distractions, so many tvshows to watch! Plus it's kinda scary, the furies part kinda scares me :( BUT i'm still gonna finish it anyway!
Oh and there's another book, 'the kept woman' , the plot is kinda nice so i'll see where it takes me .
I went to that suckish book fair in Pisa on Sunday.
I thought I could buy some shopaholic,or some really old gossipgirl books, but i was wrong. SO WRONG. Turns out my sister got the wrong info. the book fair only has chinese books. I have nothing against Chinese, but the books there kinda sucks and some of them scare me. Then I saw this really heavy thick book about supernatural stuff and i just stood there flipping pages. I wasnt fully concentrating, most of the time i was thinking how i would just grab that book if it were in English coz these kinds of books are ususally better in english. I mean I don't want to look at those complicated translated names. Know what I mean?
Seriously thinking of losing weight right now , but whenever it's evening, i'll just feel like: ahh why cant i just lie down and watch a movie. and so i did.
then i promised myself i will wake up at 8 and jump rope but i woke up at 10. -.-
Oh yeah i watched BECOMING JANE , and tom lefroy or james mcavoy is so hot. so english and hot.
Really liking superjunior right now, seriously considering whether i should be in that fandom bcoz it took me some time to get myself free from kpop and not be lifeless.
I guess that's it?

s&t

“I’m so sick and tired of this fuckery

        I’m so sick and tired of the people around me

        sick and tired of your mood swings, your attitude.

        and most of all.

        I’M SICK AND TIRED OF YOU.

        You are not the queen, I play the upper hand, don’t you know?

        Maybe one day you will come crying to me .”

all this reminds me of her but you are worse. You know i hate that part of my past, but you keep reminding me of her anyway. What’s the point?

I actually thought we might be best friends, you know that?

You say you hate gossip, but you love it. Don’t you know?

You are silly, now i know why they hated you so much.

You think everyone is gonna put up with all your fuckery, but someday everyone will leave you.

afternoons

afternoons. they're my least favourite time of the day.
Ok,yes it's because i have to go to school.
BUT.I hate it on weekends too.
You know when it's saturday or sunday and you decide to wake up really late and end up waking up around 11/12 which is like morning-afternoon-ish . really in-between. then you don't know what to do bcoz it felt like morning yet so hot.
oh yes, the heat.
im not talking about HOT HOT HOT kind of hot, just the kind that makes you feel sick and lazy but you don't want to sleep or lie down coz your head is heavy all coz of the heat.
If you don't get this, you must be weird or it's just me being paranoid and weird.
Moving on, your head feels heavy and you're reluctant to just get up and go bathe and BE A MAN(NIGAHIGA!!!,OK JUST RYAN)
After a few hours, you finally realize that if you don't get up and bathe, you're just gonna end up doing nothing .
So you're in the shower, PS YOUR HEAD IS STILL HEAVY and thought "oh hey! it's hot, what about some cold water?" BAD IDEA. YOUR HEAD HURTS, REMEMBER ? so you stick to 'good ol hot water'.
When you get out from the shower, you feel fresh. but the afternoon-shitty-ness still isnt gone. so you have to wait for a few hours till you're all fresh and ready to go.

THIS IS WHY I HATE AFTERNOONS

Productive

Such a productive day today. thought I should blog about it.
I woke up around 7.30 and got ready for tution. Then of course, I went to tuition. I paid attention and didn't talk much. Pumpkin and little piggy was being noisy. the chicken was noisy too. Remind me why i have so many animal friends. sigh.
Then i came back after 1130 and had breakfast and did my own stuff, like watch Merlin 3, walked around , listen to my sister rant. And I bathed and i felt proud, because I spent almost half the day doing good stuff, like science and math. :)

So sad grace couldn't be part of this productive day. :(

It was so productive that my eyes even feel BIGGER. :)